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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

ya..admit was lazy to reply...sorry to mention that some of the reply i accidentally deleted so if u wan u can send it again to my offline reply and i will reply here..thanks lots

frenzy repiles

jun: not town? that`s weird. where else can you see me? lol` yup i guess yinmei should know you. got chance then ask her. hahah (:
jo:i'm fine with him lerhs and in fact betta..LOL..just a normal couple quarrelling over some misunderstanding..^^
zz:dun be jealous...find one instead^^
rin:didnt know y i choose sp over np...mayb sp has betta sci course perhaps??btw i put biotech in my 1st choice.

She blogged her story @ 9:06 PM

i think i'm dying soon slept only for 5 hours...can't fall asleep last nite in the end read some books and slept at 5 a.m this morning.Then woke up by the noise my mum and dad were creating...aiyo..is life always gonna make me so troubled?? but i don't balme them since i can't sleep well last night too.

i'm still thinking hard and it like giving me headache now..

i wonder is it bcox of the lack of sleep

or that question i been thinking for hours..??

and i`m getting irritated myself, not to mention anyone around me. -.-"

guess a little shopping with diana tmr will reduce my headache :))

ok..i do stop whining about it here...

not gonna think abt it anymore since my decision is made

mommy gave in to my cravings. i finished almost half of the new year goodies already. she said she`ll get another jug tmr. but she didn`t allow me to touch those cookies that she made. ):

♫ have you ever loved somebody so much; it makes you cry? have you ever needed something so bad; you can`t sleep at night? have you ever tried to find the words; but they don`t come out right? ♫

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She blogged her story @ 11:19 AM

personal post...

been thinking for the whole of last night and realised that we are at the crossroads once again .i hate the facts that the problems keep resurfacing out of nowhere and you're telling me you're so confused and can't make up your mind.Maybe i have think too much or maybe i'm just right but right now u said that u need time to think carefully for one day and u gonna make sure that u can only do things that u can achieve.Since at the beginning of our relationship you are so unsure in us than why does we even agree to be together in the first place??

I'm too,confused myself with the truth.it is only until recently that i started pondering over this question:how much do i know myself,what i really wants?i guess the biggest problem with me is that i don`t know myself at all.i always take things as they come and i never really knew what i want.in studies, in work, in love, in life, and in everything..i should have long know that this relationship with you might be in lots of pain when i enter poly.(really scared being hurt once more in a relation)i'm sorry that i always kept my door shut toward you that becox i went through many hurtful past relations and now i`ve got to know myself better than anyone else.only then will i be capable of understanding other people.i don`t wanna let anything fail me again,and nobody shall have the chance to award me a death penalty anymore.

and after nearly 17 years of breathing..

i just want to find me. (:

At first i really tot that there will not be any problems and i would be happily forever after with you but in the end i think that I'm too childish to even think about it. Maybe reality caught up to us, maybe we just weren't meant to be.

You know what hurt the most is when u can't even give me a confirm answer face to face that our relationship would be stable after poly.All u just said is that you will try to pull our relationship back in the 2 years time.Since u long knew that we would drift apart than why do i even need to hold on tightly to you.

i might be the one who started all these problems,but these is all because i wanted to know the truth.i wanted to know wat position i am in your heart.

At one point you were telling me how important I am to you and how you don't want to lose me - that make us forget about our problems.Then you tell me that you need time to think about us.That is when i feel so disconnected to you . I don't know what to do as i realised that you still not confident enough in us.That night,i just wave to you wif a fake smile and walk home alone with an empty heart.I'm so disappointed,i guess this is the first time i ever use this word in our relation.

I'm just going to have to leave you alone .I want things the way they used to be .and because i can only guess, i assume you feel for me the same way i do for you,i think i was totally wrong abt it. althought I love you but obviously your love isn't as strong as you say it is.

At this point ,is it time to face the fact that this relationship is over???

PS: ACTUALLY ALL I WANT YOU TO SAY LAST NIGHT WAS "I WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU NO MATTER WAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

♫ i always wanted to ask.

if you understood just a little of my feelings,

although i never told you... ♫

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She blogged her story @ 1:11 AM

Monday, January 28, 2008

A POST TO ALL THE FELLOW CLASSMATE

CLASS OF 2007 5n2

finally all of us are going different ways after 5 years..long time yeah..but it always sad to know the truth that we are gonna separate sooner or later.yupx, i guess that's life thou.SEPARATION seems to haunt us down no matter who we are and we are always stick to this word.

I'M SAD BUT TO THINK OF BRIGTHER FUTURE FOR ALL OF U GUYS OUT THERE AFTER OUR O LVL I FEEL MUCH MORE COMFORTED.YEA,WE WORKED SO HARD TOGETHER TO COMPLETE OUR SECONDARY SCHOOL JOURNEY AND PROCEED TO A HIGHER LEVEL OF EDUCATION.AND THAT IS SOMETHING WE ARE JOYFUL ABOUT.HOPEFULLY WE WILL ONE DAY STILL REMEMBER THE TIMES(THE YEARLY BBQ.CAMPING.TEASING TEACHER.SKIP SCHOOL.LAUGHING TOGETHER.AND BIG GRP GATHERING IN CLASS FOR GOSSIP AND OF COURSE THE TIME TOGETHER STUDYING) AND OF COURSE RMB OUR MEMORY TOGETHER WITH PRIDE.^^

cya on the coming chalet^^

and ya not to forget those help from teacher through my secondary sch life

thanks a million teachers to help us to make it through the o level!!!!and hope ur passion for teacher increase every year^^

**mr raj (my 4 years form teacher,love his way of teaching me physic and most cute teacher)
**miss sasi(co-form teacher.the most caring teacher and the most wonderful ss teacher)
mr karthi(math,most serious-looking teacher)
mdm sal(the most hardworking teacher,f&n )
miss hawa(the most helpful teacher,f&n )
mr ho(the most funny teacher,chi)
ms wong(the most strict teacher and most punishment given teacher and most effective teaching method i hv ever seen^^,english)
miss wang(the small chill-padi teacher..she is hot..but beware^^,geo)
miss pan(band teacher)
miss mariah(band teacher)
ms tay(the most not to quit teacher,a-math)
mrs yue(the most traditional teacher,chem )
mrs phang(the most excuses teacher.math)
mr soh(it teacher,most friendly teacher,helped me in my coursework)

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She blogged her story @ 4:28 PM

Sunday, January 27, 2008

i have submitted the JAE le my choices 1 - S72 BIOTECHNOLOGY (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 2 - N49 MOLECULAR BIOTECHNOLOGY (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 3 - T27 BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC) 4 - C74 MOLECULAR BIOTECHNOLOGY (NANYANG POLYTECHNIC) 5 - T31 BIOTECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC) 6 - T09 LAW & MANAGEMENT (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC) 7 - N51 ACCOUNTANCY (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 8 - C99 MARKETING (NANYANG POLYTECHNIC) 9 - N64 NETWORK SYSTEMS & SECURITY (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 10 - S89 INTERIOR DESIGN (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 11 - S43 APPLIED DRAMA AND PSYCHOLOGY (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 12 - T39 RETAIL MANAGEMENT (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC) above choices can be change again..so this should be the following but not confirmed until 28th jan 08 ,4p.m

personal

i will listen to my parent to really work hard and concentrate on my study

hopefully i get into the bio sci course

which will lead me to my dreams.

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She blogged her story @ 1:53 PM

gal Advise

to reprimand mistake is to forgive and forget

that y forget the person and what happened is the best way.

seems selfish rite?

but life is full of selfishness that u can't see

so y not just be selfish for yourself just once..

even it's not kind enough.

but at least you will do yourself some good..agree???

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She blogged her story @ 1:42 PM

Friday, January 25, 2008

Lately I've been thinking About the things that we've been through And I don't know if I'd be here, If not for you I had to take a little time To try to work things out And You should know thatI have never meant To let you down[Both] [Chorus] Cause I, IWannna tell you that I'm sorry And I, I Even when I'm not giving enough And I'm taking too much You're still there for me Even when I got nothing at all And I'm ready to fall You're still there for me There for me There for me Even when I can't be there for you You're always there for me [Vanessa] Sometimes I know I can be So hard to understand (It's ok) Even when I'm lost You show me who I really am Life with me hasn't always been an easy ride But because of you I've learned To lose my selfish pride [Both][Chorus] Cause I, IWannna tell you that I'm sorryAnd I, IEven when I'm not giving enough And I'm taking too much You're still there for me Even when I got nothing at all And I'm ready to fall You're still there for me There for me There for me Even when I can't be there for you Oh you're always there for me yeah Oh no it's loveOoooouuhhh (Oooohhh) It must be loveOoohhh It's gotta be real love (It's gotta be real love) Even when I'm not giving enough And I'm taking too much You're still there for me Even when I got nothing at all And I'm ready to fall You're still there for me There for me There for me Even when I can't be there for you (When I can't be there) Even when I can't be there for youYou're always there for me

Labels: songs

She blogged her story @ 1:04 AM

Thursday, January 24, 2008

our 2 month celebration on 23th jan 08!!!!!!!! *cheers*

that meat bun should have nothing to say le ba.

2 months le...

times really pass so fast.

finally went to catch vanished but our hopes for this movie vanished after the show.

this movie is bad,not excited,not scary,not fun.IT'S NOTHING!!!! RATING:1/5 wasted 96 mins on this movie

it's been so long since i took neoprints..realised that his smile is all the same except for the third pics which he totally have no idea that the machine is taking the photo in 3 seconds.loves his smiles anyways. btw, this is the most precious gift i have received by him.--his smiles THE DINNER AT WARAKU

he pointed at me cox i secretly took pics of him again..I'm naughty..haha we played scissor paper stone.and he lose to me therefore as a punishment he gotta eat all the melted ice cream^^

^^love the food there but my dear dear choose to eat curry rice.The curry rice there isn't that fantastic.but seriously i love their dessert..yummy,esp sharing it with your honey .

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last glance at my second home

went to collect my o level result.

isn't wat i wanna get.so will reveal the result here when I'm prepared.

gonna miss my 2nd homes and my ai ai (mr raj)

love the zigzag platform ,the ponds,the fishes,the sci lab,library..everything

been getting moody ever since i got back my result.

not because of my result,

but the fact of seeing all my fun mates leaving me,

going in different direction ,

will miss you mates

and hope that i hv make a deep impression in you^^

and of course a good one

ALL THE BEST IN YA FUTURE..

*SMILEY*

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She blogged her story @ 9:27 PM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

^^She is so cute laa...call her DA JIE JIE or she'll cry...lolxxx

actually planned to watch vanish with dar today but in the end i changed the plan cox i dun wan my parent to nag me"y always go out wif your boi" and yes...my whole family re-named my boyfren name to "your boi"...all bcox there was once my sis said"ask ur boi" all my sis fault..tsk tsk tsk***

so most probably we will catch vanish tmr and shu bian celebrate our 2 month together..but there was another movie i feel like watching called the cloverfield..heard from my fren they said not bad...mayb i will watch it with my dearest frens cox i missed the time hanging out wif them...

and ya,my father brought a super cool electronic stuff which i got to admit that it's really super super cute and user-friendly but quite expensive. $700 .That is the only prob it's has given me so far-FAR TOO EXPENSIVE LE and it out of my budget to grab one for my sista who will soon-to-be a driver after she pass her driving test.So now wherever i wanna go i can just ask the device and i will nv get loss again esp when it's my mother who drive the car.so that how interesting and useful satellites would be when it comes to asking of direction.

Labels: clips, complains

She blogged her story @ 3:10 PM

Monday, January 21, 2008

WEnt our wif my boi ytd.Planned to watch vanished but in the end he overslept.Even though i tired to call him twice but this boi down there still can't wake up!!!wat a piggy.. but can't blame him cox that night we talk till 5 a.m..lol..

in the end we went to buy new york pizza,a can of ice lemon tea,the chicken and mee sua from 士林, a set meal in kFC.We actually tried to finish the food there,we successed with my dear throwing up three times.The mee Sua was the nicest among all that is why it's the first one to finish up by him.Humps he ate more than 3/4 of it...there go my mee sua.After that, we lie down to watch the stars again..^^

^^my mum curl my hair tempoary..dun really like it but it nice to touch cox it's very bouncy.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ btw i change the skin again to the valentine theme cox valentine's day is coming^^ looking forward then.. NOTICE: O LVL RESULT WILL BE OUT ON THIS THURSDAY 24/1/2007

Labels: hanging out, notices

She blogged her story @ 7:56 PM

Sunday, January 20, 2008

^^this is so funny..found it on youtube...i think sld be quite a long short clip

Labels: clips

She blogged her story @ 12:42 PM

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Guess it's time for me to start to think abt my future "what u wanna be when u grow up?"--that's the question my mum used to ask me when i'm young therefore,now it's the time for me to have the actual answer for my parent who have waited for 17 years.. below are several choices i would like to take in into consideration. Ngee Ann Polytechnic (in order)

Biomedical science-->National Neuroscience institute of singapore-->than to local university-->laboratory technologist for neuro-brain cell
Business information technology-->local university-->e-business and management consultan
network systems & security-->Nanyang technological university-->network support Technologist

there are more but i think these three are at my top most listing right now.^^

personal here

i'm like the 3 ♦ in your deck of dai dee cards gives you the privilege of being the starter, yet the first to thrown away.

sometimes i do get a feeling that i'm the girl who u come to talk to when u're bored and wash me out of your mind when you are just fine.i used to promise myself that i won't be so stupid to pick up ur calls or reply ur msg,but whenever i heard your excuses and the unbearable moments u are suffering,i can no longer fight back the tempation to let u hurt me once again..therefore i can only chose to fight back my tears...

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She blogged her story @ 8:36 PM

Friday, January 18, 2008

web cam with jo just now...been donkey years since we chat..i mean gossip or complains to each other..^^ the queen and king of complains..

the photo that she qiao qiao took de...i look so bored...but of course i'm not bored msning wif her is just that i hv no mood-COX MY EZ-LINK CARD FARE CHANGE TO ADULT LE.. i'm so not used to have my money deduct so fast...it's like double the amount i usually paid. A big **humps **here.

^^acting cute when she said she wanna took more photos of it..

missing..

lots of people out there.

♫ take one step at a time,

there`s no need to rush.

it`s like learning to fly,

or falling in love.. ♫ ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

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She blogged her story @ 8:04 PM

Sunday, January 13, 2008

i feel so lost while typing my entries..cox i dun know where and how to start after so long...Lolx..i can't believe,chinese new year is around the corner!!!and than i will be super duper rich again..but right now i gonna save some money for my new clothes for CNY..that would make me super duper poor this month.but i;m lucky gal...someone will help me to pay for my clothes...

watched with my darling..rate 2/5 wasn't very nice show a little scary tat all.. i have guess the ending somehow ,so it wasnt surpising at all..

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She blogged her story @ 12:14 AM

Friday, January 11, 2008

personal anger

now wat kind of guy is he. stupid.flirtious.jerk.bastard. i mean he is getting all those who had loved him before getting hurt. who he think he is..?? the truth is,he is just a guy which wants attention from others. therefore,since i had known his tricks,i think there is no longer any needs for me to contact him so much. anyways, i miss school slacking at hm is worse than going to school. can i go back ??reverse the time even thought sec 5 was a stressful year but somehow i miss it.

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She blogged her story @ 1:04 PM

Monday, January 7, 2008

staring at stars is like staring backwards in time; since some stars are so far away that their light takes million of years just to reach us, we see stars not as they look now but as they were when dinosaurs roamed the earth.

if i can really stare backwards in time,i

wish that i could see a more beautiful world..

why do we have to keep going forward and never look back?

how can we be so sure that we haven`t left any precious memories behind?

recently i have a feeling that i have missed some part of myself been slacking and wasting my time at hm after i hv quit my job.. went to collect my pay this afternoon ..not to mention the sad amount i recieved:((

personal here

anyways i'm really sorry about wat i did

didn't know that you wld be so dissappointed

promise ,it won;t happen again^^

thanks for being understanding ,love you

♫ you`re still a part of everything i do,

you`re on my heart just like a tattoo.. ♫

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She blogged her story @ 10:20 PM

Sunday, January 6, 2008

notices

i have change and personalise the blogskin.
repiles will be updated next week
blog asual will be update and "start working" again by 7 th jan 2008

yawns**************i'm offically tired now..

like wat my dear always said"battery low liao"^^

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She blogged her story @ 5:01 AM